there is this swelling pit of frustration and anger and jealousy that I cannot shake. I feel as though I am being eaten alive. I wish God would create an intervention of my thought and emotion and totally take them over. I want to cry but don't want anyone to see me and yet I don't want to be alone. I am so utterly confused and lost.
I want to punch something! I want to run away and I want to be found and told how much I am loved and missed. I want to scream so loud and hard I can't ever tell another lie or ever speak again.
Wow, these are some deep emotions you are fighting, I am praying for you. Just know that Jesus is carzy about you and no one can ever love you the way HE does:) xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou could totally say that Toyin. I am struggling with the consequences of my sins. and It hurts
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