Sunday, March 27, 2011
A letter to My Father
I know you are working something, but does it have to be so painful? I know I have oft turned from your face and that this is all just a wake up call to come home to you. I want to come home to you. but the devil is telling me that I am already lost, that I am worthless and unlovable and unforgivable. I struggle to tune him out and rely on what I know to be true. I need your intervention in my life. I need help in letting you take control of my life and carry me when I am weary. Right now, I am beyond weary. My way isn't working and I don't know how to let you take the wheel from me.
Friday, March 25, 2011
nothing like being smacked in the face that you are still a piece of crap. I hope that you can work a miracle and help me become honest and genuine.
Lord Help me to be humble. I wish that I could simply be genuinely who I am. How is it that I am unaware to who it is I am? I also just want to love myself so that I can stop punishing everyone that does love me because I don't love myself . I know you have plans for me. I know that through you anything is possible. Please Lord let me be worthy of a change and a chance to be better. Help me hate these things that hurt people so that I can put actions to my wants.
Lord Help me to be humble. I wish that I could simply be genuinely who I am. How is it that I am unaware to who it is I am? I also just want to love myself so that I can stop punishing everyone that does love me because I don't love myself . I know you have plans for me. I know that through you anything is possible. Please Lord let me be worthy of a change and a chance to be better. Help me hate these things that hurt people so that I can put actions to my wants.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
God Foods interesting read
EAT LOTS OF SWEET POTATOES
It's been said that God first separated the salt water from the fresh, made dry land, planted a garden, made animals and fish... All before making a human. He made and provided what we'd need before we were born. These are best & more powerful when eaten raw. We're such slow learners...
God left us a great clue as to what foods help what part of our body!
God's Pharmacy! Amazing!
A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.
A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All of the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food.
Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.
A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.
Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.
Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.
Avocadoes, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).
Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility.
Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.
Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries
Oranges, Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts.
Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body.
It's been said that God first separated the salt water from the fresh, made dry land, planted a garden, made animals and fish... All before making a human. He made and provided what we'd need before we were born. These are best & more powerful when eaten raw. We're such slow learners...
God left us a great clue as to what foods help what part of our body!
God's Pharmacy! Amazing!
A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.
A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All of the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food.
Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.
A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.
Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.
Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.
Avocadoes, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).
Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility.
Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.
Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries
Oranges, Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts.
Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Little LLama Princess
Ok maybe not princess but the Queen Drama Llama has struck again. Is it ok to be completely done with someone? I can't handle the insesant need to try to make everything about her. Granted I know that she is overly sensitive and wants the universe to swing around her.
The sun she is not and earth I am refusing to be. Too much weight to rest on my shoulders.
Granted I also realize I blog in the middle of the heat of the storm. But it's my blog and my thoughts my feeling and analyzations to what is going on inside of my body and mind.
The sun she is not and earth I am refusing to be. Too much weight to rest on my shoulders.
Granted I also realize I blog in the middle of the heat of the storm. But it's my blog and my thoughts my feeling and analyzations to what is going on inside of my body and mind.
Monday, March 7, 2011
God is so GOOD
Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Psalm 37:7
Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
I took wise counsel back in December and I listened to that wisdom. Last Thursday, I went back to the recruiters. Decided I would pick a job just so that I could get benefits for school. The Lord smiled on me. He made the job I wanted pop up with the specialty specifications. I accepted the job of Combat Medic with an emphasis on Health Care Specialist aka LPN! The job I was told there was not a way in HELL I was going to get. I told them from the very beginning God would make the job available to me! When my recruiter pulled up the jobs, his jaw dropped and he said "how did that come up". At this point, we didn't know it had the kicker for the LPN. So when he clicked on it to reserve it for me and saw that, He stated , "Some one must be looking out for you." My thought was "NO REALLY?!!? I instantly exclaimed," you are right GOD".
He really was looking down on me. He lifted me up and he heard my cries and he knows the dreams and desires of my heart. He rewarded me for knowing it would happen just not right when I wanted it. God provides! I am so grateful, so at peace and so excited to do the work the Lord has set before me.
I leave for BCT on June 7th! Please keep me in your prayers that the Lord wraps a shield of love and protection around my family while I am away from them.
In May I also get to participate in the Ms MUDRUN. This goes to help people that mean so much to me to be able to help friends of mine that are fighting this fight! Please keep them in your prayers as well.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Psalm 37:7
Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
I took wise counsel back in December and I listened to that wisdom. Last Thursday, I went back to the recruiters. Decided I would pick a job just so that I could get benefits for school. The Lord smiled on me. He made the job I wanted pop up with the specialty specifications. I accepted the job of Combat Medic with an emphasis on Health Care Specialist aka LPN! The job I was told there was not a way in HELL I was going to get. I told them from the very beginning God would make the job available to me! When my recruiter pulled up the jobs, his jaw dropped and he said "how did that come up". At this point, we didn't know it had the kicker for the LPN. So when he clicked on it to reserve it for me and saw that, He stated , "Some one must be looking out for you." My thought was "NO REALLY?!!? I instantly exclaimed," you are right GOD".
He really was looking down on me. He lifted me up and he heard my cries and he knows the dreams and desires of my heart. He rewarded me for knowing it would happen just not right when I wanted it. God provides! I am so grateful, so at peace and so excited to do the work the Lord has set before me.
I leave for BCT on June 7th! Please keep me in your prayers that the Lord wraps a shield of love and protection around my family while I am away from them.
In May I also get to participate in the Ms MUDRUN. This goes to help people that mean so much to me to be able to help friends of mine that are fighting this fight! Please keep them in your prayers as well.
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