Halloween and Parental Hypocracy

So here it is Halloween 2010 and I am still bothered by the fact people wont let us just be the parents we want to be. We don't celebrate Halloween or Christmas or Easter or Birthdays.  The only "holiday" we celebrate would be our Anniversary.  It is the time that we became a family united. Sure we had our son 4 days before we got married but that is the day we were official legal and binding and covenant made one with each other and one with God.

See we don't do Halloween because we spend so much time educating our kids how important is it to NOT talk to strangers or to take candy from them.  So why in all the world and for the love of everything green, are we going to take our children one night a year to the strangers' houses and ASK them for candy?  What are we teaching our kids?

This brings us to Christmas and "Santa". We dont' celebrate Christmas for several reasons.  Christ never asked us to remember his birth.   Don't get me wrong it is important to remember the awesomeness of God and the fulfilling of His prophecies. But GOD didn't have a fat white man in a ared suit with a belly full of jello slide down my chiminey to give me gifts.   WAIT, what would you DO if a fat white man slid down your chiminey into your house while you and your children were sleeping?  What if you woke up to  a fat white man in your livingroom while your sweet cherrished gift from God was sleeping on your couch ?  Yeah and then that brings we teach our children not to lie that God hates lying and that lying destroys trust.  SO WHY IN ALL THE WORLD are you going to lie to your child about a man that comes Christmas eve to give "good" boys and girls gifts.    The real good boys and girls are already given a gift.  OH WAIT so are the "bad" boys and girls, the most precious gift was that a son was born from God to a virgin so that he could die on a cross so we could all be forgiven of our sin and washed to be white as snow through his forgiveness.  To top all this off, Christmastime is a time when many parents put themselves in debt to give their children everything they want.   We are not commanded to give our children everything they want, we are commanded to teach them right and wrong and the way to know and follow God. Just read Proverbs.

We don't do Easter because people just wanna say its all about the Easter Bunny.  WTF?!?!?  The idea of the Easter Bunny has always just kinda freaked me out.  GOD the Son rose from the dead on Easter.  We remember him and that great day. We are quiet and reflective.

This brings me to birthdays.  Sure I love the idea of celebrating the birth of my children, BUT life isn't all about them. Its about what good are you going to do for your community to glorify God? Being a productive member of society.  I want my kids to care about people about doing good for them and how it feels to do the right thing because it is the right thing to do. I want kids that aren't judgemental because we make them work for the things they have so they appreciate them.

I wonder if other people think about these things when they are judging me because I don't raise my family they way they raise theirs.

going under

Sitting here and
I wonder when
it's all going under
the day will fall
into the ocean
the night fly into
saddened and dreary
skies.
I wonder when
its all going
under.
When the sun
wont shine on me
and the rain
will fall like
acid~ burning my skin
Is it gonna happen
is it gonna happen
don't let me fall
into the ocean
or fly into uncertain
and scary skies.
Reach down and save me
save me from the disaster
of the human race
lacking in humanity
Don't let them suffer
sleeping in the cold
under card board
stuffed with newspapers
Going under isn't
how it should be
freezing in the snow.
burning in the heat
No respite from the
cruelty that walks on by
Don't let them starve
bellies distended
and flies in their eyes
Don't let them waste away
with potential unmet.
Give them hope
and a song to sing
that passes the light
of your faithful torch.
Don't let us all go under.
Help us remember
you have saved us
all before.

letters on a screen what do they mean

I realize I  haven't been writing much lately.  I don't know if its the fact life has sped up and gotten busy but I miss it.   there is a void where words should be.   Don't get me wrong I have ideas swimming in the cells up there but they are ideas with out words.    If I were an artist I would try to paint them into images, but artist I am not.  That would be my brothers' jobs.  I am the one that finds meanings to life in words and letters on the pages and screens of the books and websites in my life.

Is God testing me to see if I will push through the lack of concrete ideas inside my head and form a release?  He gave me this gift and it is HIM I really want to please with it.  I wonder if I am just not listening to what he wants me to write about.  Or if He simply wants me to just listen for a while.  I know that there are times when it's quiet inside of me.  Reminds me of the years between the old and new testimate when the people were lost and not hearing from God.  I don't want to be lost and with out my Father.

Just pondering and thinking of the Letters On the Screen and What They Mean.

Pics.

so instead of waitin for someone to tell me i found out myself.   here are a few pictures from this summer when the kids and I were in Pa.

all four of the kids on the bench at cucumber falls

just a beautiful view of the trees and the stream

the falls make them look so small

AnDosia putting her shoes on after dipping her feet in the water

my little goof balls

pictures of beauty

so i was just looking online at my best friends wedding photos.  WOW she was absolutely stunning.  I so wish I could have been there.  Life seems to have a way of keeping me away from the important events in my dearest friends lives.
 Sometimes I get so angry at it.  Sometimes I wish I hadn't ever moved away so that I could be there for all those moments of weddings and births of beautiful babies and graduations.  I know that everything happens for a reason and I know that I wasn't able to be at those events because I am supposed to treasure each moment I have with those people as I get them. Believe me, no one knows how much I treasure them.  Each phone call, each letter and email each hug I get in real life because I just never know when the next time will be.
I look forward to the possiblity of seeing these awesome people in the near future  and it really warms my being.   The next year can only bring goodness.


ps  does anyone know how to post pictures on their blog?

so i guess its time for an update

I finally got my police checks back for the army.  now its a waiting game on getting the waiver back in a favorable light. ( please God let this be your will and not just mine)

I also started a new job.  working at a dry cleaners. WOW does it get boring but the work is good and the pay is decent and God provided it along with an honest Christian boss that asked me to read The Purpose Driven Life on my first day.  He has a copy he keeps in the store along with his bible.

Other than that I don't feel as though I have much to report.  turning 31 yesterday felt just like 30 the day before