nothing like being smacked in the face that you are still a piece of crap.  I hope that you can work a miracle and help me become honest and genuine.
Lord  Help me to be humble.   I wish that I could simply be genuinely who I am.  How is it that I am unaware to who it is I am?  I also just want to love myself so that I can stop punishing everyone that does love me because I don't love myself .  I know you have plans for me.  I know that through you anything is possible.  Please Lord let me be worthy of a change and a chance to be better.  Help me hate these things that hurt people so that I can put actions to my wants.